Times like this I remember the Japanese Proverb Fall down seven times Stand up eight.
Well I feel off the cliff into the ocean of depression and dispair once again... I need to work on coming back out of the darkness and into the light. Sometimes the darkness is so strong and deep that I am not sure I will ever find the light, but I know I need to. I know I have to find a way to keep going if not for myself than for my family. But that is the thing... I really need to find a reason to keep going for me, something inside of me. I need to find some inner peace within myself or I will never find it without myself. Time for some soul searching... Time for some introspection and figuring out who I am, where I want to be, and what brings me happiness.
This time when I stand back up, I need to do it for reasons within myself.
