I thought today I would start a grateful journal and incorporate into this journal. My goal is to write at least 3 things I am grateful for that day.
Today I am grateful for
1. A vehicle to get us around town
2. My children even at their worst they give me a reason to keep going.
3. A washer and dryer so I can do laundry while doing other house work.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Mid July Redirecting myself
Haven't been very successful with hitting any of my goals. If I am to be honest with myself, I think I have developed an apathy towards life with my depression. I just can't seem to really care or see where I make a diffrence anymore. I figure the first step is to change this thought process as it is not productive to me or my family.
So I have to ask myself... What do I need to do to feel good about myself right now? Well I am currently considered a stay at home mom and house wife. So what does this title mean? I should be keeping the house clean, the laundry caught up, the bills managed, making and sticking to a budget, taking care of the kids, getting family where they need to be and picked up and healthy meals provided at meal time. Am I doing this? Not really... no wonder I feel so fricken useless I have no direction, no purpose is being fulfilled. I am just breathing and taking up space. This needs to change. So the rest of July my primary focus will be to bring the house back to order and get it cleaned up. Today generally cleaning and then deeper cleaning from there.
I think having a clean environment will also help me to just feel better overall and take some pride in myself that I have a clean home.
So I have to ask myself... What do I need to do to feel good about myself right now? Well I am currently considered a stay at home mom and house wife. So what does this title mean? I should be keeping the house clean, the laundry caught up, the bills managed, making and sticking to a budget, taking care of the kids, getting family where they need to be and picked up and healthy meals provided at meal time. Am I doing this? Not really... no wonder I feel so fricken useless I have no direction, no purpose is being fulfilled. I am just breathing and taking up space. This needs to change. So the rest of July my primary focus will be to bring the house back to order and get it cleaned up. Today generally cleaning and then deeper cleaning from there.
I think having a clean environment will also help me to just feel better overall and take some pride in myself that I have a clean home.
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