Changes are a happening

Wow June as brought a whole lot of changes and emotions with it. I hope July is more stable. My oldest graduated high school and moved out. This in and of itself has been very emotional for me. My significant other has steady lost hours at work due to company wide hours cuts. This has hurt the budget and my ability to keep a positive outllook. I am still trying though. I keep believeing it will work out somehow. I have to believe this.. We are switching bedrooms around and splitting up my two youngest into their own bedroom. This has been and still is a major undertaking. I can't wait till it is all done. I am also taking this opportunity to declutter and get rid of things the boys no longer need or play with. It is prolonging the process somewhat but is needed as they have way too much stuff. I haven't made much progress with most of my June goals but with everything happening I am just trying to focus on one breath at a time as things seem to be whirling very fast around me. I feel like I am on a spinning ride that has gone out of control and is going to throw me off if I don't hold on very very tightly.

June Goals

Another Month has come and gone. I took the Burns Depression Checklist today and sitting at about 78/100 in the extreme depression range. A big part of me is just tired. Tired of being here, tired of trying, struggling, hurting, and breathing. But then there is this little voice that keeps screaming out to keep fighting and find a way back up the mountain to the top. May was a disaster for goals. I ended up not really getting anywhere near what I wanted to accomplish. I just lost the motivation to keep trying. I also feel so darned exhausted and tired. I did keep up on my work until my nephew got hurt which gave me a sense of accomplishment. I enjoy my work a lot and am looking forward to jumping back into work tomorrow.
Steps I have taken to try and stand back up after falling once again... I reworked my control journal and going to jump back into the fly lady system and combine her program with my de-clutter book and find my house amongst all the stuff that I really don't need. So my house cleaning goal is to keep up on the daily cleaning while de-cluttering at least 30 minutes a day. This week is Zone 2, the Kitchen and Laundry room so I will be de-cluttering the those rooms this week.
I started back into Sparkpeople as well. I weighed myself yesterday and logged my weight. I actually lost 11 pounds so far. :) that made my day. My goal is to lose 2 lbs a week. so next Sunday I will weigh 237. My personal health goals are Go to bed no later than 11 pm and get up at 6am no later than 7am. I want to more water during the day. Currently my water intake is 1 or 2 glasses a week. I want to increase that to 1 or 2 glasses a day. I also want to work on moving everyday and getting some exercise in. Maybe playing the wii with the kids. We have wii active, wii fit and wii sports among other games but these would provide the most movement.
My personal education goals are to read Wicca for beginners and work through the exercises in the depression workbook.
Many other goals are in my mind but I probably have more than than enough to work on with what I have listed so far. So my mantra I CAN do this and I LOVE myself enough to do this for me.
recap of goals
1. declutter house 30 minutes a day while keeping up on cleaning.
2. Lose 2 lbs this week.
3. Drink 2 glasses of water each day.
4. Begin to move! exercise, play wii, go for a walk
5. Read Wicca for beginners
6. Work through depression workbook
7. BELIEVE IN MYSELF!!!!!